Last night I had to stay up until hubby got home so that I could tell him his mom *might* have suffered brain damage in the past few days in the hospital. We are all hurting right now but I know how bad he is and that kills me. Today I tried to stay busy again. It hurts me to stand up. It hurts me to lay down. It hurts to sit down. Yet I keep telling myself that my MIL has lived with severe pain for the past 20 years and yet she has always made herself keep a beautiful home and more. I feel so selfish saying how miserable I am because I can't imagine what she is feeling right now.
This just hasn't been a good week for us. I feel like I am coming unglued. I found myself crying today while I was taking a shower because I realized I have 4 weeks left of pregnancy. Everything is just adding up and is overwhelming to me. I don't let myself think about anything bad happening to her because I just can't deal with that right now. She and I are really close and I feel like I have to be strong now for my hubby and everyone else including my girls. They keep asking where Nanny is and all I have told them is that she had to go to the doctor. I know hormones are just adding to it. My mind is fried. I have to pull myself together somehow.
Thanks for letting me whine if you got this far. Sometimes you just have to get it all out you know?
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Getting it out there
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:-( Hang in there and wishing the best outcome for your mother in law, an easier last few weeks for your pregnancy, & a sweet little joy at the end that helps take away some of your troubles. :-(
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