Monday, October 08, 2007

In a rut

This is probably going to be a pretty long post. Lately I have been stuck in a rut. I've been having trouble sleeping at night because I can't stop analyzing everything and during the day I don't have enough energy to do what all I need to be doing. Bottom line: I'm not sure what I want out of life anymore. I have goals but for the most part I am just floating through each and every day hoping something will come along that will be like a lighting bolt shocking me into reality. There are some things I know that need to change. And there are some things that should change but can't for one reason or another. I am tired of feeling this way. I have to do something about it. I have started coming up with little things I can do to get me back to feeling more like me. I am hoping that by taking baby steps I can start to appreciate the good things in my life and stop being so stressed all the time. God knows I have plenty to be thankful for. I just have to get out of this rut.

One of the things I want to start doing is saving more money. I have always been very good at this and I still am but I have also been spending a little here and there everytime I go out just to "browse" a store. It all adds up. Even those $1 items. So I am putting myself on a spending hiatus. I bought a few things today and that was basically my last splurge. I have come up with a good system for saving. I actually think it is going to be fun to see how well I do. We are stocked up for the next few weeks on diapers, wipes, shampoos, baby wash, and detergents so it shouldn't be too hard for me. I know I just have to keep pushing through and I will be ok. I am so blessed with incredible family and friends and I just have to find the strength in myself to turn my problems around. I know I can do it. If you got this far in my post thanks.

Now on a brighter side:
I found this car pillow for little man for only $4.99 today.( My last splurge for a while since he didn't really NEED the new car pillow.LOL.) He carried it around tonight but I was too slow with my camera and he refused to cooperate afterwards so there went those perfect shots.

Here he is in his adorable little $2.99 pj's from our local consignment shop. Man I love that place.

I really do have so much to be thankful for.


Mere said...

Oh girlie....((HUGS)) you can call me or night. I started saving 1/4 of all my checks I recieve....not sure what I am saving for....I think I'm going to put it towards a car or camera. Love ya! Mere

Frazzled Farm Wife said...

We all get in ruts now and again it's trying to get out of them that is the tough part. I am praying that you get out of your rut and truly enjoy life!

Tricia said...

(((((((hugs))))))))) we all get in ruts. just makes you human. one day at a time.