Thursday, April 24, 2008

Struggling

I struggle with a lot of things. I struggle with the laundry. With keeping my kids looking presentable throughout the day. With cooking dinner every night. With the housekeeping. With my faith. I struggle with a LOT. Some days are easier than others and some days I find myself wanting to scream down the street. I hate cooking and most other chores I am required to do. Then I found this verse in the bible:

Who can find a virtuous and capable wife? She is worth more than precious rubies. Her husband can trust her, and she will greatly enrich his life. She will not hinder him but help him all her life.
She finds wool and flax and busily spins it. She is like a merchant's ship; she brings her food from afar. She gets up before dawn to prepare breakfast for her household and plan the day's work for her servant girls. She goes out to inspect a field and buys it; with her earnings she plants a vineyard.
She is energetic and strong, a hard worker. She watches for bargains; her lights burn late into the night. Her hands are busy spinning thread, her fingers twisting fiber.
She extends a helping hand to the poor and opens her arms to the needy.
She has no fear of winter for her household because all of them have warm clothes. She quilts her own bedspreads. She dresses like royalty in gowns of finest cloth.
Her husband is well known, for he sits in the council meeting with the other civic leaders.
She makes belted linen garments and sashes to sell to the merchants.
She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs with no fear of the future. When she speaks, her words are wise, and kindness is the rule when she gives instructions. She carefully watches all that goes on in her household and does not have to bear the consequences of laziness.
Her children stand and bless her. Her husband praises her. There are many virtuous and capable women in the world, but you surpass them all!
Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the Lord will be greatly praised. reward her for all she has done. Let her deeds publicly declare her praise.

-Proverbs 31

The Bible I have been reading breaks it down to understand so the words may not be exactly the same in the actual bible. Either way this really hit me. I complain about so much. I complain about staying home. But then I realize that I am very lucky I get to stay home. That somehow we still get by with only hubby working. I want to be better in a lot of areas. I want my husband to feel relaxed when he walks through the door instead of being yelled at about forgetting to take the trash out.( Something that has happened all week long.)

When we move it is the start of something brand new for us. Our lives are going to drastically change especially with Makayla starting school. I am clearing out half of our home so we are less cluttered. I want to make it a habit to try new recipes and cook almost every night for my family. I have some pretty hefty goals but I am starting with going to church this weekend. I haven't been willingly in a very long time. I can't wait. The girls are excited. I am excited. And hopefully it will be the start of something great.

Thanks if you made it this far. I did a bunch of layouts last night and today so hopefully I will post some soon.

8 comments:

Tricia said...

oh honey we all struggle... having 3 kids home all day every day Is hard... truth be told I would dress them and ME ony min before the hubby got home. Ha You sound like you've got some great goals good for you! It will be so nice to move into your new place with a fresh start! YOU GO GIRL

Sheri said...

as Tricia said, we all struggle.

We're going through some very tough times right now, and I truly believe it is God drawing us closer to him. I feel He is bringing us to our knees so that we may bow before Him and in turn allow Him to bless us. I don't know if that's what would be taught to us, but it's truly what I feel.

It has brought us back to church, as well. I will keep you in my prayers.

Ariana said...

Oh my gosh I read that part from the Bible just last month for the first time in my life and highlighted it and wrote it in my journal.

It totally seered my mind and really helped me take a step back and refocus my efforts.

It doesn't necessarily make it easier (I HATE cleaning and cooking and all the things I have to do, too!), but it does give encouragement.

Sarah C. said...

Beautiful post! You are doing a wonderful job! I can't even imagine how much work it must be to care for your family. Sometimes just DH & me is more than I can handle.

That Bible verse is perfect. I don't think I've ever even heard it. Definitely going to mark it when I get home. I hope you all have a wonderful experience Sunday and find a church home that is a good fit. :)

Mere said...

Remember I love you sister! If you need a listening ear, you know my number.

*Southern Beall* said...

Proverbs 31 is what I have prayed over myself since I was about 13. Keep it up. We struggle because we are doing something right. Just remember that. =)

Antonia said...

Yes, we all struggle. But God is always here for us when we need him, and when we don't think HE is there, but He always is.

You know I am here for you too, always!

I am so excited for Makayla to start school, I know she will do so good!

Lorie said...

Oh my gosh, your post totaly hit home for me. I feel ya totally! Its super hard to be an at home mom despite what some people think. But its also one of the biggest blessings I have been given in my life.

You can do it! Everyday remind yourself of why you do it and when you forget, read that scripture again and put it back into perspective. You do a great job with your family! Its really quite inspiring!