Sunday, September 21, 2008


This past week has been one of the worst I have ever had to face. At one point I just broke down and said enough already! I'm done. But then somehow the sun still rose the next morning and I found the strength to get up.

A few days ago I got into it with one of the apartment people( she was SO rude I think I am going to report her to the corporate office) over a safety issue. I had to call several lawyers and it turns out that I am right. Not them. So now we are trying to talk to the manager on Monday since she isn't there on the weekends. For some reason our super nice office staff have all turned into vicious monsters. I think it has something to do with the hurricane damage. Hopefully they will retract their claws soon because they have made a LOT of people here mad.

Then that same day the girls sprayed Lysol Kitchen Cleaner in the boys eyes on accident and I spent 30 minutes panicking, on the phone with Poison Control and in the shower practically drowning my poor baby to flush out his eyes. Sounds like a bad day right?

THEN to top off the night I go out to the van and discover that both our locks are broken and that hubby's $350 GPS and $200+ of his locksmithing equipment have been stolen. Now that is a bad day. I finally just broke down. The hurricane has wiped out everyone financially since we couldn't get to work,etc. I just couldn't take it anymore. But like I said the next day the sun did rise. I got up and continued trying to piece my life back together one step at a time. Last night I was feeling a little better but still struggling.

I don't know why but my faith has really been put to the test and I will admit I am not handling it well. I feel like I can't find the strength within myself to believe anymore. So I have been praying. Praying for God to send me some kind of a sign that he hears me. That he hasn't given up on me or hubby. But I still felt nothing. Then last night I watched the boy play with his cars. I saw his big blue eyes looking up at me with such love that I couldn't contain myself.

Suddenly everything was better. How could it not be when you look at that face?


linda said...

Hang in there.. Prayers and hugs that things will begin to look up for you all soon..

Dawn said...

I will keep your family in my prayers. People don't think how it affects us personally with a storm even if we don't have damage. We might be out of work for days and have to re-purchase the food that we worked hard to buy the first time, etc. I hope things get better quickly. How awful that the van was broken into!

Frazzled Farm Wife said...

Awww...that is a sweet face!

Hang in there....things have got to get better! Praying for you and your family!

Antonia said...

OMG! I am so sorry somebody stole the gps and Chey's stuff

But yes, things will get better.

Do not give up on God, he never gives up on us.

CUTE CUTE pic of Mason